June 2017 Blog
Almost didn't make my deadline this month.
Remember what I said about "shiny things"?
Distractions!
Well, life may not always provide shiny things, but
it is always there and the living (or surviving) of it can easily distract us
from our intended purpose.
To Purpose! A Haiku
The sharpest pencil
Would rather be dulled by use
Than retain its point.
This is the first day of
the sixth month of the year. 2017 is nearly half over, and I am not much closer
to my goals than I was when the year started. I have made virtually no progress
this last month at all.
I would apologize to
myself, but the apology would fall on deaf ears. I must renew my efforts or
face accomplishing little this year except treading water, and I'm certain I
don't have that many years left to procrastinate.
Now, how does one hold
one's self accountable when there are no incentives to do well and nothing to
be held back against failure?
One gets to that point
when the only thing in life pending or looming is one's own demise and one
seems to have a mental block against contemplating it.
True, that should be incentive
enough. I must do these things before I can't do them and all is lost. Sad
state of affairs, isn't it?
Okay, on a more positive
note: I need to be more organized. I used to have a schedule for everything and
I pretty much stuck to it (and consequently got things done). It went by the
way side sometime around my bout with congestive heart failure and resting – lots of resting. Then came trying to live life
again and then came the elections (but that's a whole different story). Guess,
I need to drag the schedule out and rework it – making it relevant to the now.
I do make lists (and my
DH makes lists for me), but I frequently neglect to refer to them. I guess I
can blame that on age (really, I think I can). The old brain is still a whiz at
Sudoku puzzles, but "what was I supposed to de next?" can still be a
mystery.
Oh, and distract me from
my routine at any time and I'm totally shot for the day. Seems I'd rather nap
than jump back into something I was supposed to do, if I remember what it was.
My excuse, if that's what
you would call it, is "I can always do it later". Which in itself is
a fallacy, and I know it. But at the time, the nap wins out and then later
becomes later yet.
I don't suppose anyone
else has these problems. In my mind, it seems everyone else has it all
together. But then, over the years, I've found "everyone" else to be
essentially the same as me. So I'm assuming others out there have performance
problems also. (Not that kind!)
I'd be grateful for any
hints. While waiting for some, I guess I'll print out my old schedule and work
on it.
Shouldn't be too hard,
right? All I need to do is remember to do it, may be write myself a note to do
it, maybe paste it on my forehead and look in the mirror once in a while.
By the way, as I sit
outside and write this, I can see rain clouds rushing my way with actual rain
in them. Since I do my best writing outside, guess I had better speed up my
pen. The wind is picking up, but I still don't feel like moving this inside.
I've written in the rain
before (as well as bitter, freezing cold). Not sure if it's defiance or I
really, really, really like to write out here where clocks don't tick and time
(if not the storm itself) stands still for a little while.
Back to that unvarnished,
un-shiny schedule: It has to include (besides writing) household chores and
paying bills as well. The former seem to get done on an "as desperately
needed" basis. The latter is done (reluctantly at best) at the last moment
because, it seems, there is rarely enough money at the end of the month anymore.
(I’m sure it's a situation that many seniors understand as an unfortunate fact
of later life.)
Okay, none of that helps my
writing, editing, publishing or promoting situation one whit, but now you understand
how I am with distractions and shiny things.
Hopefully, next month, I
can report on some real progress. At least I can tweet my book promotions like
I did earlier this year. Sold a few books that way, too.
That reminds me, I love
Twitter ( https://twitter.com/awlasky ). My husband says "way
too much", but then he says that about my fan-girling Jimmy Fallon, too.
I will reach 20,000 followers
soon (three years worth of work – and it is work). I will celebrate that
milestone, maybe with a book sale – that would be appropriate, wouldn't it? J
I'm not on Facebook (https://www.facebook.com/ann.wilmerlasky
) much, although I repost
my Twitter post (Daily Haiku) there everyday. I should learn to make better use
of it. (Wow, I've just added another project, haven't I?)
Too bad, so sad – so many
projects in my mind, but they can't seem to translate to actions. Maybe I need
to post some visual reminders of what I want to do somewhere I will actually
see them. Wait! They would obliterate my computer screen, wouldn't they?
Until next month's
progress report, remember – a sharp pencil writes nothing. You have to use is
to make any progress. It is happiest blunted.
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